Confused

September 26th, 2011

[Verse 1:]
I want you to know that when I leave
It'll be the last you'll ever see of me
I tried so damn hard to fix you
To make you believe in what I see

If you wanna be broken, be broken
I won't dare try to mend you again
I've tried my best to get through
But there's no getting in

[Chorus:]
When I go, I'll pack my bags
Won't leave a note
No second chance
No, that's all we wrote

[Verse 2:]
I tell myself that this time
Something's gonna change
That you'll look into my eyes
And your heart will fall in place

Well you need space
Darling, you're such a headache
I'm not sure
How much I can take

[Chorus:]
When I go, I'll pack my bags
Won't leave a note
No second chance
No, that's all we wrote
When I go, I won't be back
Don't ask me for
A second chance
No, that's all I wrote

[Bridge:]
Drop everything baby
The bottle is calling
Whoa, you're sinking
Fall down, pass out
No you can't feel a thing
And if you start to honey
Just keep drinking

[Chorus:]
When I go, I'll pack my bags
Won't leave a note
No second chance
No, that's all we wrote
When I go, I won't be back
Don't ask me for
A second chance
No, that's all I wrote

[Bridge:]
Drop everything baby
The bottle is calling
Whoa, you're sinking (sinking)
Fall down, pass out
No you can't feel a thing
And if you start to honey
Just keep drinking

This song is by Ally Cupcake, and it's my song for my ex Mat Skordrud. He's been on my mind an awful lot lately. And to be quite honest, I don't know why. I met him back the end of July, we met online and talked for a few weeks. Well about August 6th or so, him and his mom came and picked me and Trevor up, and we went back to Louisa with them. Me and Mat instantly connected on what I thought was a higher level. Everything was so perfect, and his family loved me and Trevor. Well to make a long story short, me and Trevor ended up staying a week, and definitely over stayed our welcome. We went home exactly a week later. The next day, Mat broke up with me cuz he thought I was a really bad parent. I should probably mention that Mat has some pretty bad anger issues. During the course of our week there, Mat would get frustrated with work or pissed at his family, and would take it out on me. Verbally, emotionally, and unfortunately physically. But since we already said " I love you" and he said he really meant it, I just ignored it, and just turned the other cheek. Anyways, after we broke up, I hooked up with his best friend Corey, which Mat didn't like too much, even though he was already dating someone new. So needless to say, I had to block both Mats and Coreys number. But lately, I've been thinking about Matt alot lately, wondering how he's doing. And how his children, Miley and Wyatt are doing. I miss his children more than I miss him, which I think is kinda sad. They're gorgeous. I would've loved to have been able to be their "mom". I had a dream about Mat the other night, and in my dream, I left my current boyfriend, who's name is also Matt, for the other Mat. The other Mat apologized for everything in my dream and gave me a huge kiss and hug. Idk why I'm putting my dream on here, but I don't wanna forget it, so I figured I'd write it down.