eh

ive pretty much lost my 2 best friends since i last wrote in here://
pretty much the only person i have left is my boyfriend;;
well now fiance<3

friends<33

ive come to realize,
that i have some of the best friends, that i could ever ask for.
sure, we get in some small fights, but they never ever last long.
i dont know what i would do if i didnt have them in my life.
here are the reasons i live;;


my boyfriend obviously





my best friend lillayy jackson [:





and my future wife<33

the boyfriendddd <33

WILLIAM CHRISTOPHER BARKER!<3


this is my amazing boyfriend chriss <3
we've been together for almost a month now and its been stellar so far. (:
i love how i was never able to be myself around someone before but with him its totally different!
we act so goofy, and theres never a moment where we're not laughing.
i mean yeah, sure, we've had a couple of little arguements...
but theyre always resovled within 5 minutes, and made better with a kiss
i love it when he comes over and all we do is sit on the couch watching a movie while just holding eachother tight.

i love it when we walk and hold hands, and when he lets me play with his fingers.
&&i absolutely L.O.V.E it when he lets me play with his hair, and put it up in pigtails (:

hes also an amazing singer/guitarist/pianist/drummer.
hes simply an all around amazing guy,
and i look forward to many more months with him (: <3

ive realized...

im ready for my battle to end.
this has been going on for wayyyyy too long.
over 3 years to be exact.
i dont wanna be this way anymore.
i dont wanna have to try and hide my scars
and lie to people when they ask me about them..
theyre are unbearably noticeable,
and i have to look at them everyday.
all they do is remind me of how much ive been through over the past couple years.
all the hurt, abuse, neglect.
then looking at those and thinking about that makes me want to do it even more..
this needs to end right here, right now.
no more cutting.
no more addiction.
no more depression,
i wanna be happy for once.
i wanna go back to how it was when i was a little kid.
not a care in the world.
everything was perfect.
i just want this to end!

hi (:

hmmmm
well this is my very first post,
and im nawt really sure of what to put. (:
hmmmm.
hehe.
well byeeee (:
<3