I'm now 30 weeks and 4 days along in my pregnancy. I'm pregnant with a little girl I'm naming Aubrey Nicole. The middle name is for my cousin that died Halloween morning of 2011. This pregnany has gone by alot faster then when I was pregnant with Trevor. It feels like just yesterday I found out I was pregnant. I miss Matt alot though. His fiance Zada, is pregnant with his child as well, he got her pregnant a month after they got together. We broke up 4 months ago, yet it seems like it just happened. I do believe I loved Matt. I know I've said that about every guy that I've been with, but I believe it with Matt because I still feel so strongly for him, and my heart still aches when I think about our memories, and when I think about how me and him and Trev were a family, and how excited we were getting to have Aubrey. I miss it, I miss it alot. I've realized how I've completely moved on from Chris at this point. Now he's nothing but a memory and a lie. Which I'm completely fine with, I got the best part of it all anyways...my beautiful handsome blessing. Without Trevor, I really don't know what I would do. He's my whole world.