ive realized...

im ready for my battle to end.
this has been going on for wayyyyy too long.
over 3 years to be exact.
i dont wanna be this way anymore.
i dont wanna have to try and hide my scars
and lie to people when they ask me about them..
theyre are unbearably noticeable,
and i have to look at them everyday.
all they do is remind me of how much ive been through over the past couple years.
all the hurt, abuse, neglect.
then looking at those and thinking about that makes me want to do it even more..
this needs to end right here, right now.
no more cutting.
no more addiction.
no more depression,
i wanna be happy for once.
i wanna go back to how it was when i was a little kid.
not a care in the world.
everything was perfect.
i just want this to end!